As I was kneeling this morning before the Altar and Tabernacle of the Lord, before Holy Mass started, I was considering all of my sinfulness and giving thanks to the One God Who is in the Persons of the Trinity – Father, Son and Holy Spirit, and also to Mother Mary, for everything They have done for me, for us, in spite of our consistent failures daily.
I considered just how unworthy we are to be in His Presence, yet He comes to us, and calls us to Himself and gives Himself to us so that we might also have His Life, be healed, and live with Him forever.
I prayed, “Make me obedient. If only I could see what the Father is doing so that I might imitate Him constantly. Let me stand by His side that I might just do as He does, and nothing more and nothing less, and please Him as He deserves.”
And then I remembered that Jesus said,
“Amen, amen, I say to you, a son cannot do anything on his own, but only what he sees his father doing; for what he does, his son will do also. For the Father loves his Son and shows him everything that he himself does, and he will show him greater works than these, so that you may be amazed.” [john 5:19-20, NAB]
The Holy Spirit must have been helping me to pray this way since my prayer reflected what Jesus teaches. This comforted me.
And, walking up to receive the Lord in the Eucharist, when I was within one person of receiving and before I bowed, I heard Him say,
This was an inaudible, calm speaking. This made me very happy and I think I almost hit the priest moving forward to receive The Lord. I know I could not hold back my smile. It must have appeared awkward. But this is what happened.
What a wonderful gift, to know the Lord because He desires it in His love for us.