Now, when I got back to the house, I saw a reminder on my IPad that I was to be Lector tomorrow morning at the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass. Having forgotten that completely, I immediately found the readings for tomorrow, and imagine my surprise, given my thoughts and prayers, when I saw the first reading. Here it is:
Reading 1 from 2 KGS 4:8-11, 14-16A:
One day Elisha came to Shunem, where there was a woman of influence, who urged him to dine with her. Afterward, whenever he passed by, he used to stop there to dine.
So she said to her husband, “I know that Elisha is a holy man of God. Since he visits us often, let us arrange a little room on the roof and furnish it for him with a bed, table, chair, and lamp, so that when he comes to us he can stay there.”
Sometime later Elisha arrived and stayed in the room overnight.
Later Elisha asked, “Can something be done for her?” His servant Gehazi answered, “Yes! She has no son, and her husband is getting on in years.”
Elisha said, “Call her.”
When the woman had been called and stood at the door, Elisha promised, “This time next year you will be fondling a baby son.”
Well, when I read that, it touched me because of 1) the coincidence with my thoughts and prayers, 2) the coincidence that I will read it tomorrow as if a witness to the miracle, and 3) the realization that God was speaking to me through this situation. He knows how I feel about children.
Now, that stated, I have accepted that I may never have children, and I am okay with it. This gives me room to live life more for others doing things that regular fathers would not ordinarily do perhaps. But, if the Lord wants to bless us with a child, then I will give Him all of the Glory, and very happily.