Last Sunday, during the Liturgy of the Eucharist at the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass, I was praying and had a dim vision of the Lord sitting in His Throne. He looked tired and His attire was a red and bronze-gold colored robe of thick, ornate fabric – kingly and manly. Looking at me, He simply said (inaudibly),
“Me. Look to Me.”
I did not understand the vision at first – it was short and to the point. Why did He say that to me? What is the context? But, as we drove out of the parish parking lot, I looked up at the license plate of the car in front of us and it stated,
I had NEVER seen that plate before in my life. It took me a few seconds to get that “eureka!” effect – when I realized that the plate means “Turn To Him.” When it came to me, I thought how strong a confirmation this is that He really is serious about getting this point across to me.
Lord: “Me. Look to Me.”
Lord’s Messenger: “Turn to Him.”
So, here’s what I think happened. Earlier that morning, I was viewing the recent Medjugorje message, and I had decided that I should begin reading ALL of those messages and take them seriously, and follow them. But, then I had this vision of the Lord directing me back to Him instead. Okay. I totally got it.
So, how do I look to the Lord? How do I turn to Him? I have begun to pray more directly to God the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. I have also started praying seven Our Fathers / Hail Mary’s / Glory Be’s, but with more of my heart, meditating intently on what I am saying, and then stopping when I get an inspiration and then expressing praise or thanksgiving or remorse for sins and asking for His grace that I might be made holy and merciful as He is holy and merciful. I am trying to draw closer to Him as my real father-father, and love Him as my super-superior father-father, especially since my Dad went to Him in September. I am trying. May He help me achieve His intentions for me.
And, now, I feel motivated to open up my heart and soul to greater faith in His total presence and love, not only for me, but for you. I want to believe more deeply and talk to the Father and totally depend upon Him, in honor of His great love and total fidelity. For as His Son, our Lord Jesus said:
“So I say to you, Ask, and it will be given you; search, and you will find; knock, and the door will be opened for you. For everyone who asks receives, and everyone who searches finds, and for everyone who knocks, the door will be opened. Is there anyone among you who, if your child asks for a fish, will give a snake instead of a fish? Or if the child asks for an egg, will give a scorpion? If you then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will the heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him!” [Luke 11:9-13]
I want to be a good and holy child. Maybe, all that I need to do is ask Him for the help of His Holy Spirit?
Thank You, Father. I love you and am very, very grateful. I feel you in my heart now. Thank You. I love You, Abba.