In my prayers at the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass this morning, I strained under my obvious weaknesses to ask the Lord to let me know His will that I might obey it. I asked “What is your will” and I heard, “Nothing.” I have heard this before, but this time, it bothered me. I asked, “But Lord, how could it ever be possible that I could not do SOMETHING to obey and serve you for want of loving You?” And then it dawned on me.
I – me – me alone – can do nothing to serve God’s will. It is the very Life of Christ in me who makes it possible for us to do God’s will. I thought back to the Lord saying,
Very truly, I tell you, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink his blood, you have no life in you. Those who eat my flesh and drink my blood have eternal life, and I will raise them up on the last day; for my flesh is true food and my blood is true drink. Those who eat my flesh and drink my blood abide in me, and I in them. [Jn 6:53-56]
I can not even begin to live without Christ first living in me, much less abide in Him. The definition of life, to live, is Christ in me. To do His will, I must accept Him and abide in Him – in a way, see what He does and then do what I see Him doing. I must become even as St. Paul became, writing to the Galatians:
I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. [Gal 2:20]
And so God reorients me to what I have not been fully seeking and teaches me a lesson in humility, that to do the will of God, I must do it through and in and with the life of Christ who must live in me. I must be intimately bound to Him and live because He lives in me. For he says here, again:
I am the vine, you are the branches. Those who abide in me and I in them bear much fruit, because apart from me you can do nothing. [Jn 15:15]
This is what came to me when I reached out to God and complained this morning that I did not know what His will was for me to do. I was being like an ignorant (or lazy) child because we all have the wherewithal to learn and know His will and how to obtain the ability to live it more fully. But, we often walk away from Him for a while, don’t we?
It gives me comfort knowing that the Lord Jesus Christ is a good man whose exemplified ambition was in loving and healing and guiding others, not in working and making lots of money and in creating luxurious conditions for Himself. He taught us to seek after the more important things in life. And He gives us this comforting exhortation and promise:
Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me; for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. [Mt 11:29]
Who doesn’t want rest for their souls? Who doesn’t like to be around someone who is meek and humble? It is not too hard to become more like the Lord. We can do it!