Consider the harm. Choose instead to kiss, caress and heal His Holy Wounds. You don’t know what you do, but you do. To your caresses, your heart-felt confession, He will respond with grace and peace. He will love you and ask you, “Will you love me now? Will you not sin again?” Return to Him to bandage His Wound. He will help you grow stronger.
“Nor did demons crucify him; it is you who have crucified him and crucify him still, when you delight in your vices and sins.”
— St. Francis of Assisi (cf, Catechism of the Catholic Church #598.)